TRUST

I was reading about faith the other day. It's not a word I relate to - for me, it has religious, Christian connotations. But I know what people mean when they talk about faith, so I asked myself , what is my version of the rock bottom knowledge, the certainty that no matter what, I will be okay?  Trust. I trust that there is always a way to connect with the spiritual principles through which I've found change and freedom over and over again - the principles of surrender, powerlessness and acceptance.  Those principles are a higher power for me. I may not be able to connect to them immediately or in my time frame, but whenever I give myself over to their power I find relief.  Over the years, I've been caught by so many things, some superficial and some very deep seated, and it's taken a very long time for me to  understand what real surrender, powerlessness and acceptance are. No magic light of understanding has suddenly lit up the dark night. Instead, understanding has come slowly and only through experience, direct experience. Like everyone else, I've had to live out my voyage one day at a time. Each surrender, every effort to let go to acceptance, to things as they are in this moment, every to the bone realization of my powerlessness has made me more willing to turn to those principles. Every experience has increased my trust.